Entry Sixteen: Christmas is almost over.

Well its 30 minutes until christmas is officially over. Today was pretty good! Sadly I was sick, but I did get everything I wanted - and more! I had christmas eve at my grandmas house on my fathers side, I got a new flight log and some money from family. The next morning (christmas) I spent at my other grandmas with mom. I was a little nerves going there, I really don't want to get them sick. Ill have to wait a few days before hearing if she did or not.

My grandpas was also there, it was nice seeing him. I can still recall all the memories, all the time we spent together when I was a kid. He taught me so much, like all grandpas do, but he was special, he was and still is a pastor. I am so proud that he was apart of my life. There is one kind memory which I never shall forget, the bikes rides he used to take me on. He would ride me around the block and we would talk for hours, questions would spill out of my mouth, he returned them with answers. I wish I could still hold full conversations with him, but his alzheimer's wont allow it. Im very glad I got to spend another christmas with him. The only thing that makes me sad is I forgot to get him something for christmas. I got my grandmas a John Wayne collection on DVD, I guess both of them can enjoy it.

My mother put so many presents under the tree! There were lots of great gifts waiting to be opened, I got a blanket from my grandma, a few really nice shirts! And From my mom the aviation flight bag I really wanted! I got my mom a snuggie and a dvd, she already had it though so I think shes going to return it. I got robert a few DVDs too, he can be a little picky when it coms to movies but I think he liked them. Oh and I forgot to mention earlier, on christmas eve I got my dad a really nice audio headset for work, thats all he said he wanted. Overall this christmas was just great!

Its now 11:40, I cant believe christmas is almost up. I was downloading some old pictures from my phone to my mac and also browsed through my library. I still have the photos from last christmas and it feels like they were taken only yesterday. I remember as a kid my parents used to use that phrase "it feels like it was only yesterday" or "I remember that like it was yesterday". Im starting to use that phrase more and more as the years go by.

Before writing this I finally got to read some of the good old word, I read the book of wisdom. Only a few pages though, it made me cry a little, with sadness and with joy. This earth is so mind boggling. In all its complexions and confusion the only thing I can find peace in is god, the distant, the vast.

I will finally be clean, I will finally be good and perfect in the eyes of god. I will no longer sit at night, questioning my every day inabilites, nor will I feel shameful for my mistakes. I will no longer be lonely nor empty. I will be filled with pools of love. Best of all, my mind will be purified, because as of right now its a swamp.

It will be like waking up on christmas morning when my parents were still together. The ones where I woke up filled with an overwhelming joy and excitement. When life was perfect and all things, were right. I specifically remember this one christmas when I was playing with a toy remote control car with my dad, and I remember my mother smiling and watching us both. I also have other memories of us decorating the tree, me climbing under it, and me playing with the playmobile train we used to set up.

When that time comes I will give god a hug, my dad a hug and give my mother a hug and kiss. I will run to the tree and dance in front of it singing hallelujah. Oh what a hopeful and wondrous idea, what a peaceful though, it makes me cry. These Christmas's, the days of reflection, the days of delight.

Until Next year! Merry christmas!

Entry Fifteen: Its Christmas Eve!

Well today is almost the day, christmas eve. I am utterly speechless because so much has happened. I cant recall how many posts I have started with that sentence, but even though its said often it cant be truer then it is now. I came out alive with that car accident and finally paid it off. I didn't really get to save up much money though. I still am a little bothered by that. At least I was able to buy christmas presents for my family. And I should be getting two more paychecks before sessional is over. WIth that.. oh do I have plans!

Working at Best Buy has come with some great perks, the discounts are just mind-blowing. Not to mention the mark up on products, that is even more insane. It would be nice to be on commission, because with the amount of sales I put out the door daily I could me making some big bills! Especially because of mac, I love selling that stuff. My entire family owns a mac every man women and child. So showing customers our get togethers is always a kick. Last thanksgiving we put all 14 of our macs on a table and took pictures. Its a probably the most amazing selling tool I have, the best part is I only have it!

I wasn't able to get my dad that robot vacuum. He found out about it and demanded I spend the money on more important things. Instead I decided to get him a really nice pair of headphones, for an even nicer price "Discount". I also found his favorite movie, Top gun. As for my mom I actually was able to get here a few nice things. I bought a snuggie and some dvds, and a message from my church on Cd. I think whats on it will really bring her spirits up! I know this christmas is going to be one to remember.

Entry Fourteen: Christmas plans

I spoke of christmas last, and I am still super excited. Today I decided what I would be buying my dad. I want to get him a robotic vacumme because he has some crazy cleaning habits. Each saturday he wakes up at 6 to go downstairs and clean the floors, kitchen, and Den. I wish they were a tad cheeper. If it wasn't for my car accident I would be able buy great gifts for both of my parents, and finance them on my own. Thankfully my grandma and uncle will also be pitching in, so it will be one giant git from all of us.

I think he will really enjoy it. I know I will, this will take such a huge burden off him and I can finally spend some more father son time, instead of getting pissed for waking me up with the noise. He might for once, be able to sleep in and enjoy a little more of life. I haven't decided which model to get but I am thinking of the Roomba 510 or the Neat0 XL11. I would get the Neat0 but that would mean saving up more cash, would mean waiting until after christmas.

I think if I can get him into robots, I would be giving him more then just a free saturday morning, but a huge finical freedom. Once he realizes some of there uses, he can start cutting back on our home service's (housekeepers / Gardeners). Maybe next christmas I will I can save up, and have enough money to buy him a robotic lawn mower. Now that I have a job I can finally start creating some home improvements. But this is going to of course be on my back burner, I have more important things to deal with then "improvements", I have school and my flight training.

Now I still haven't figured out what to get my mom. I was thinking something for there future pet, or perhaps a few giftcards to Star Bucks. I would give more but.... well I am not trying to be bias towards my father but he is just... well, he pays for my car insurance and gives me a free place to stay. So I think the least I can do is give him a good christmas gift. Not to say my mother doesn't do anything, she loves me tremendously and would if she could, I know that for a fact. Ugh, these kinda decisions are so frustrating.

I wish I was just in my career and making the big money so I could start spending it on others now hahaha. If I was to make bUkoo bucks then I certainly wouldn't keep it all to myself thats selfish. Its funny how people like me never win the lottery, the world would be a much better place - seriously. The only people I know that this happened to is that couple in the trailer park. They gave the whole 20million to charity and just used a small portion to buy a new TV. Thats intense....

Entry Thirteen: Accident is finally paid off.

Its been awhile sense I logged something.

It has been three weeks sense my car accident. Three days ago I made face to face contact with the other vehicle owner, he handed me the estimate for the car and things began to move. We agreed on a payment plan consisting of two weeks. I already have his first payment but organizing the exchange has been difficult. For some reason finding a day we are both available has become like a mission. The last day we set on was this tuesday, hopefully nothing comes up which will interfere.

Thankfully, these recent mountains have been bulldozed. I was worried for my new job, and how this car accident would put even more stress on finances. But money is beginning to flow in again. Although I haven't put anything towards flying, I am not overtly worried. I got my card paid off - with no interest! Also, tonight I was given an opportunity to make some extra cash. A friend of mine is willing to pay me for helping her wash airplanes. I am so excited, this great news has lifted my mood tremendously!

Hmmm what else... CHRISTMAS!
I cant believe my eyes when looking at the calendar. Its just mind blowing to think the year has already almost passed. Don't get me wrong, christmas is my favorite time of year, I wish it would stay longer! I still recall last year perfectly. I went up north to visit my cousins all on my own. It was such an awesome experience.

I do especially love the decorations and sessional cheer. Last sunday I went to my church (says in a proud and cheerful voice) and watched the tree lighting. Something about that place is almost magical. I look forward to this month and hope that all of it is storied well within my memories. I do not want to forget the things that have been unraveling and the good that has been accruing. I have grown so much this year its amazing. Even with the unfortunate events that continue to be thrown my.

Speaking of good, something just came to mind. Last night I attended my college group again. At first the decision was made to meet at our leaders house, but then his father pushed us to go somewhere else. I put up the offer of going to my place but that was discarded. We settled on dell taco and had a pretty good time. The discussions were slightly acward due to the seating configuration but even so, the laughs were still heard.


Tomorrow is my Safety and Human Factors final, I should probably get to bed...