Entry Eighteen: A decision to further analyze.

My brain has been processing something, I was able to grab it from a file marked "important". Apparently its been 28 months sense I took my first flight. Since then I have only logged 10 hours ($1k). Any realist would tell me that my goal is not accomplishable within the given time frame, with my given circumstances - desired time of completion age 21, 40 hours, $5k.

During christmas I was given a decent sum of cash for flying, from my family. But Dropping another 1k for another 10 hours is not going to get me any closer to my goal then I already am. I need to get enough cash to start and finish it all in one period. Which would amount to 4 times the $um of that I already have.

There are a few possible routs to take, but these depend on a few factors, so nothing I actually have, is set in stone. #1 A large factor is my job, if I can stay on past sessional then I will continue saving my money. #2 If my uncle can donate a few dollars, then, I will continue saving. But if neither of those things take place then its going to wall street & retail.

Another thing I have thought about and desperately wanted to do, for the past 16 months, is get my car rigged for AB,LB,&VHF, detection. I have countless hours of research on Radio equipment, I also want to "some day" get my HAm radio license. It was actually a big goal of mine last year, but again I lacked finances even for that. This is and has been my backup plan if I was for some reason "grounded" for a long period of time. But a bad one, because it too takes money to launch.

My impulses are sizzling with energy, I want to take action and get shit done. Its unfortunate god, and the economy lack the same urge. The good word says its all in his timing, so I guess I have to continue waiting. At least my job has given me a time, I should know by friday If I stay.