It has been such a long time since I have had good conversation. My soul has felt unchallenged, idle, perhaps dead. As you know I have not been working, and right now I am not in school. This lack of activity leaves me at home to wonder the world, lose my sanity, a unhealthy thing. I already saw it become of me and knew the only way out was to go out. Yesterday I decided to do just that.
Before leaving I read a blog of a good friend, then felt challenged by something I did not yet fully understand. In ignorance I decided to make up my own assumption of the mater, make up another opinion on the idea of morality, to plot this opinion at my local Star Bucks. I was so literally blind, when I arrived there I completely missed a friend sitting in a corner.
Thankfully though he noticed me and there couldn't have been a better time to do so, because I was at bedrock. As he later pointed out, rightly so, I was running around in circles trying to hide from something I didn't have in the equation - Sin. The stuff I have been, in my heart, trying to prove all along is a bunch of fluff. It is such a hard thing to deal with, something I thought so hard that it cant exist.
Today I know what I must do. Firstly, stop reading Wikipdea as a reference to anything philosophical. Secondly, ground my beliefs in something which is already apart of them. Instead of attempting to create new and more complex ones using others. Thirdly, which I will actually do first, finish mere christianity.
I will probably post another blog later today about some other things, theres not doubt about that. Until then....
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