Entry Fifty Four: God built a better Summer

In the last two months things have completely turned around in such a marvelous way. In my previous post I spoke about my faith becoming more personal and isolated with no place to pour it out for others. Apart of me felt alone and unwanted, or unable to give my all - use the talents God blessed me with. I questioned weather the Lord was moving me onto a greener pasture, or if I was being uprooted violently like a weed - due to some kind of disobedience. Like in winter my leafs dropped and I felt baron and bored. But soon I was shown summer once again. I believe God decided to intervene after seeing not just me, but all his planets beginning to wilt, something just had to change.

What ended up taking place is this. I continued to prod at different doors, different people, for different places I could get involved in. Unfortunately all the doors were met with rusty hinges - they were not swift to open or be opened. After much frustration and aggravation I just decided to sign up to lead a D-group (discipleship group) at APU. It turned out that this was what the Lord wanted me to do for awhile, when it was first suggested to me by a good friend many months ago.

Meanwhile, God also began working on the life group I am apart of now. He brought a new member to us who is a little younger, full of energy, and enjoys group activities like myself - who prefers to do things as a group then alone if possible. He completes the group and its exciting to see! I already assumed that the Lord was working in this way, because as before when things were rough, He would always send someone our way. New people not only teach us a lesson about humility and grace, but give us the opportunity to change, grow, and adapt.

Its mind boggling how the Lord fits our needs in all such personal and unique ways. Its not instant gratification but a process, one that is well worth any length of time to occur. In the past couple days me and a couple of the guys have gone hiking three times, we have spent time at my house, their house, watching movies and just communing, just as normal human beings are meant to do. We finally found a dynamic balanced in the pursuit of spiritual growth, a relationship with Christ, and a God loving brotherhood. The three things this universe is all about. 

I forgot to mention. I also leave for my mission trip in four days! At first I wasn't sure if it was something I was supposed to do. The money required to go on the trip was not all coming in. I needed to raise $3500 but only received $1500. But then by the will of God, I received a large check from school for food. However, after much prayer and consideration I decided to give my food money for the mission trip. Its been done on a large leap of faith... I am hoping that I can get a job when I return from Zimbabwe to cover my food costs... I believe God will be faithful though. I can trust him to be, after all he has given me so much this summer and blessed me in so many great ways.

I love you Lord and I lift my voice! To worship you!