Entry Twenty Five: Touring San Diego Christian College

Today I set out on a venture to San Diego Christian College, to better understand gods great plan. The drive down was like a vacation, so refreshing. I was at first nervous, because I was only able to put in a half tank of gas. But those feelings faded after passing the nuclear plant and seeing I still had enough to get back.

Now, I have been interested in aviation for over two years, and I still feel that is my calling. I still wish to pursue it, but, there is doubt. I can not be %100 sure until the doors actually start to open. This venture was a small step, and for the most part it has been joyful. The school is a great size, and everyone here seems nice, but most important, it has the degree I want.

I need to see this door fully open. The question "what if" wont leave me alone. I feel like, I should go into ministry, because it would be the "right" thing to do. Then again, then again, this reminds me of something I read in CSL's Screw tape letters. ("You should always try to make the patient abandon the people or foods or books he really likes in favor of the "best" people, the "right" food, the "important" books.)

From what I have seen, Its a great place for me to get my Masters degree or, my bachelors degree (in aviation administration). But I am stuck with another great option. Azusa Pacific University, which is by the way, a free ride. But San Diego is where my passion and degree truly lays. Free ride, or degree I want... hmmmm

My mother thinks I could pull off both, I could transfer my ED classes from APU to San Diego and finish here, which so far looks like the plan. I am just tired of delays.... I would rather be doing, then thinking of what to do.

Decisions decisions... I will have to see what tomorrow brings, and then think about it more. I should probably pray too...